What is actually good enough?

Recently I’ve really struggled with showcasing my work across all the things I’m interested in. Drawings and paintings collect dust, writings get scratched out, and my repos never get unprivated.

It’s been really hard to find the right moment or the right feeling of “now this is good enough to share.” It’s probably some variation of a fear of failure, thinking it’ll flop before I even give it the chance to sprout. Even now, while building this website and filling it with content, I can see that the design style I found a few years ago feels very me. At the same time, I keep trying to add more instead of just publishing.

Sometimes I just need to listen to my own advice. During my bachelor’s, I created the first version of this site as a web design class assignment. Ever since then, I’ve been adding projects, deleting them, refactoring them, and constantly redesigning the site and changing the tech stack. It’s taught me a lot, but it’s also backfired. Now I catch myself wanting to hide older projects or smaller ones, even though I genuinely like them and really enjoyed making them.

Sometimes it feels like I’m oversharing, or that I’ll oversaturate my own website, which is funny because it’s my website. I can do whatever I want with it.

Maybe it’s also a desire for simplicity. I never wanted this to be a corporate portfolio or a place to show off. I always wanted it to feel like a little shard of reflection. That’s why I made the notebook. Because what even counts as a “project” anymore? Why should I limit myself to certain industries or certain achievements? That’s exactly what I want to avoid.

As I get more comfortable publishing things, I hope the readers will be gentle with me while I try my best to share not just the polished work, but also the failures, the experiments, and the progress along the way.